Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Unlucky me.

I've been thinking to blog or not to blog cos ALOT of people are reading my blog which i didn't know i'm that "popular". If you guys want to read, jolly well shut up & don't give any comments. Otherwise i'll have to lock it for my own personal viewing only. Thanks.

I received many "shocks" these few days.

ZY came and bring Raeann back to his house on Saturday. I agreed cos my neck & spine is so fucking pain that i think i need a good rest.

I lose my sleep in the end, due to the pain & without Raeann by my side.

Than the pain got worst on Sunday. So i decided to put Raeann at ZY's place for the meantime cos i want to go for some massage to cure the pain first.

I went to Amore Fitness for a swedish massage at a promotional price of $43.00 (U.P $98.00) due to national day for first timer only.

The massage lady was very good & friendly. If you all want to try, try before 9th August otherwise you have to pay $98.00.

When she rubbed on the pain i told her, she said my spine has slanted to my right side & it's so fucking obvious that it's not balance; crooked.

I told her, 不要吓我!

Than she on the light & showed it to me. My tears ji tao drop on the spot.

She still asked me, 'your husband didn't see meh? It's very obvious leh'.

Cos i'm left with only skin & bones at merely 42kg now, so my bones are all popping out.

After the massage, walking along the shopping mall, my tears dropped.

While queuing for food, my tears dropped.

Inside the car, my tears dropped.

At home, i cried for the whole night.

WHY?

I had this pain when my confinement started. I keep complaining to ZY that my spine is so pain cos i keep bending to change diaper & feeding & keep carrying Raeann on my right arm.

2 hours once, nobody helped me. I didn't even sleep at all.

Than i tried to go chinese physician to massage. The pain will still comes on & off frequently.

Yesterday i went to see a doctor regarding this. And indeed, it's crooked. In future, i can't carry Raeann or heavy stuffs anymore.

Spinal cord crooked can lead to being paralyse.

The moment i heard about this, my first thought was Raeann.

I keep thinking what should i do. I had the thought of putting Raeann in ZY's care. I told ZY about it. Guess what's his reply?

WOW. His reply shocked me again.

He said i'm just giving excuses cos i don't want to look after Raeann.

HMM.

This person is human meh?

A normal human wouldn't reply such stupid idiotic sms. He should know Raeann is very important to me. Why should i play a joke on my own body & give such a lame reason becos i don't want to look after my own daughter?

I don't know if he's an alien from an unknown outerspace anot. Cos his character & attitude is totally different from a normal human.

I cried to my mum when i reached home. She said she will employ another maid just to help me to look after Raeann.

Now this time, he said he don't want to return Raeann back to me. -_-"

He said i see him good to bully & always want to bully him. WOW.

Now, who is bullying who?

All becos of him, that i've to go through all these & give up my bright future.

10 months pregnancy, what has he done?

I'm the one carrying Raeann around. I'm the one who had morning sickness for almost 5 months. I'm the one who need to take out placenta liquid. I'm also the one who had my cheebye cutted to squeeze Raeann out.

Raeann is coming 11 months old now, what has he done during this 11 months?

Making milk only.

I'm the one who bathe & change Raeann everytime. I'm the one who wash & clean her shit everytime. I'm also the one who look after her everytime.

And him?

For the first 8 months: Sleeping, playing game, watching dvd, going out, playing billiard, lying on the bed like a 'tua pek gong' (大伯公), waiting for people to serve him.

And these 2-3 months, i'm alone to look after Raeann.

And him?

Playing game, playing billiard, eat durian, going out till wee hours in the night & sleep till late noon the next day.

His mum had the cheek to ask someone to lie to me that he's at home everyday just becos i asked him to look after Raeann.

My dear MIL thought i'm 3 years old.

So, am i wrong to say he ruin my whole life? If i still continue carrying Raeann & hack care about my spine, what if i get paralyse one day, are they going to look after me anot?

WAIT LONG LONG.

He isn't fit to be someone's husband & father at all.

Raeann is sick. On Monday, i asked him to bring her to see a doctor since he's so free everyday while i need to work. Doctor MIL said no need, she's fine.

Everytime Raeann fall sick, doctor MIL will say don't need to see a doctor even when she didn't see how serious Raeann is at all.

She will asked her son not to bring Raeann to see a doctor.

If she's that smart, she should be a doctor mah. Why is she still working in a factory? Too wasted.

He bring Raeann to my ah kim's place yesterday & she is running a fever. I had to rush to Jurong West to pick them & go back to the Baby Clinic Raeann usually go at Bukit Batok (Which is my work place).

My neck and spine is still pain. And i had to rush up & down everyday for these 2-3 months, like a mad woman.

I merely asked for a simple help to bring Raeann to see a doctor, is it so difficult?

When comes to custody, YOU PEOPLE know how to say you want to fight. When comes to looking after, YOU PEOPLE throw everything to me alone.

WTF!

You all want her custody? Dream on.

I struggle until i die also won't give the custody to you all.

My parents dote on me & Raeann alot. And they've got the ability to look after her if anything happen to me.

My dear MIL always think she's an expert in disciplining children. She gives everything the kids want to them.

Don't drink milk, NVM. Don't eat rice, NVM. Eat sweet, OK. Eat tibits, OK. If i'm the kid, of cos i would be very happy to see her. But the kid forever won't know what's wrong or right, what can be done & what cannot be done.

Raeann become very good at screaming & crying if she doesn't get the things she wants after a few times stay at there.

PLEASE. Can somebody tell her?

If she's so free, discipline her own son. Don't come & interfere & influence my Raeann. Later she becomes alien like her dad.

Raeann is my daughter & i'm her mother. I know how to teach her myself & don't need her help at all. Thank you but no thanks.

But anyway, YOU PEOPLE won't have the chance to discipline her or bring her home anymore. Cos NO WAY i will allow. Now, who talk to me also useless.

YOU PEOPLE harmed me. My spinal cord is now crooked. I'm only 24. And YOU PEOPLE must be very happy huh? So, no way i will let YOU PEOPLE harm my daughter.

"Mr Ho aka 大伯公, you got the cheek to complain to my mum that i keep calling & pestering you? I only called you to bring Raeann to see doctor for 3 times. PESTERING?

Yes, i admit, i did send sms to you. But when i changed number, YOU are the one who called my office.

But anyway, i won't ever call or sms you again. So, YOU please don't ever disturb our life anymore. See you at lawyer firm 3 years later in June."

For those who read my blog & wants to KPO, please pass my msg to him, since you(s) have been passing my msg around. Thanks huh.

Wah CB. I see smoke coming out from my head when i typed all these. My blood cells is exploding very soon.

Hmmm, i tell you all another 'shock'.

Yesterday, Raeann & me, slept from 7pm till 7am this morning. LOL

We skipped dinner together. We just knocked out after taking medicine.

Yes! My another maid is coming. I'm so blessed, to have such understanding, caring & wonderful parents. :)

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