Thursday, October 27, 2011

A Painful Lesson

No matter how many times i say 'sorry' to meimei, how apologetic i feel, how much tears i shed, i can't bring that thing back to me again. It's all too late!

I was completely lost when i realised i had lost something so precious, so dear to me last night. My mind went totally blank! I felt so upset for the whole night + guilty as well.

I lost my darling Raechelle's navel/umbilical cord drop-out, or whatever you called that. I put it inside one very common angbao and i mixed it up with others. I threw it away cos i thought it's one of the empty angbao! And after reading back my blog, i realised it was already lost since last Thursday (20th Oct 2011)... It took me a week to realise it's not there anymore! :(

Feel so heartpain, i think it's more painful than losing money or other material stuffs. This is something so priceless and no amount of money can bring it back to me anymore. I know, to some people, i may sound so ridiculous becos some people don't keep that. But to me (and some others), i want to keep everything that belong to my two babies.

I was super upset becos my MIL said by putting Raeann & Raechelle's navels together, they will be very close. Wonder if anyone heard of this? I've always been wishing for my two girls to be close to each other.

I cried becos i know it's all my fault, this can be prevented if i'm more careful. But i really have no idea why am i so careless this time round? Cos usually this type of important thing, i'll always put it aside, make a marking or whatever. And those used angbaos, i've the habit of keeping it for a year before dumping it away. But i don't know why, i just threw away everything blindly. :(

Furthermore, (can someone kill me pls?) i took pics of everything under the sun except that navel. I DON'T KNOW WHY, REALLY. Was it all fated? That i'm so careless this time? And i keep no memories of that navel?

I'M SO SORRY, MEIMEI. IT'S ALL MUMMY'S FAULT!

It's sucha painful lesson. I promised that from today onwards, i'll check everything before throwing it away.

Dear God, please keep both my kids safe and healthy, that's all i'm asking for!

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Pls prove me wrong, that without putting the navels together, they will be very close too!

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Holding her milk bottle @ 1 mth 6 days old, not enough strength though, hold awhile only!

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Love my two darlings forever!

P/S : Although it's so tired looking after Raechelle now, i slept for barely 3 hours everyday for the past one week, but i'm enjoying every single moment of it! :)

5 comments:

  1. Don't b upset. I believe without the 2 navels being put together, Raeann & Raechelle will be very close and loving! Raeann will love Raechelle very much and Raechelle will Raeann very much too!

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  2. Eh my mum also put my navel with my bro leh... But we still fight LOL!!! So not true one la.. It depends on how u teach ur girls to respect each other:)

    Mei mei is super cute wor:) hehe!

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  3. Desiree,

    Siblings who fight are closer, if you realised. :)

    Thanks alot!

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  4. It's so sweet to see you are enjoying every single moment of it, even with little slp! Jiayou!!!

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