Sunday, August 21, 2016

They're growing up, I'm growing old!


Hur, I abit regret mentioning the word "sweet", some of the comments really give me goosebumps, sorry. I need to find time to go through every single comment, and choose the winner. Tsk. Hard task. Lol, who want to help me? 


She played game on her iPad using his photo which she took last time & show me. The bond between them is strong, until I've no idea how to explain to her. Telling her he's just an illusion? Or he's no longer around? It's hard. Many times I just firmly said, "can you just forget about him?" I know, all the memories will fade one day, slowly. 

Brought the kids to choose their birthday present today! I've no time to do up a party in their school this year, but party favor will still be given. Ordered liao. Nothing extravagant, but customised, as usual. 

Becos this year I wish to do something special. I want them to give goodie bags (separately preparing) to those needy children. Buying goodies for 60 children is no joke, not the money, but the strength to carry everything. 
 
Time to let them learn not to take things for granted and be contented with what they have. Stop comparing and play their own part. Especially Miss Raeann Ho. She needs to know how fortunate she is. 


I'll have to stay over at Senja next weekend to pack all the goodie bags. It's kind of a ... dread. I've not been staying there for quite some time. Only go back to open letter box nia. 
 
I know it's a waste to leave it empty. I'm now trying to save for a wardrobe. My clothes are still in garbage bag, lolol. Actually, I've no idea what to do with that house also. It's quite sickening to think of it. No intention to stay, can't decide if I want to rent, worried that renting out will brings me more trouble. And it's really stupid. I spent so much money, time and effort, to rent it out? I really put in 500% effort. (I slim down a lot doing that house lor!) That's me! It's either I do, or don't do, there's no in between. 


Don't think I need this book, my willpower is very strong liao. Strong until people always think I'm very stubborn. I know I'm stubborn, but I'm not unreasonable. Many times, I insisted my way through, is to protect people I love. Often misunderstood by others, but I'm one who put people I love above myself. Haiz (And sorry, I won't pretend to be very nice to you and then harm you at the back.)

There must be someone who is firm enough to make decisions in a Company. I make the decision, I bear the responsibility. If anything goes wrong, I think of ways to solve it. I solve problems, I'm an asset, not a liability. #justsaying

3 comments:

  1. Hi Joanne, this is Tina. Chance upon your blog as I was searching about Project Lunchbox. Read a few of ur blog entries. Gathered that you may be a divorced mother with 2 daughters. Just wanna drop a msg to tell u that u are a very strong n capable woman! :) You are doing great! Pls take good of urself. God bless u n ur girls. Stay strong n happy :)

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  2. Hi Joanne, this is Tina. Chance upon your blog as I was searching about Project Lunchbox. Read a few of ur blog entries. Gathered that you may be a divorced mother with 2 daughters. Just wanna drop a msg to tell u that u are a very strong n capable woman! :) You are doing great! Pls take good of urself. God bless u n ur girls. Stay strong n happy :)

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