Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Sweet ki lan!

10 out of 10 people I met (customers, mum's friends etc) said I slimmed down ALOT and become much prettier. Well, it wasn't part of my life plan to slim down. Hahah

And probably becos of that, I attracted ALOT of unwanted attentions. Walao eh 


My hair stands when I see the msg. #truth Please don't ever flirt with me, 因为我不吃这套. I never ever flirt with males before. (I'll just ignore your msgs!) 

And please ah, I might be heart broken, but I'm not desperate leh. I won't anyhow find another one to substitute. So yes, leave me alone please. Thank you. Don't sweetie me and make my hair stands please. 

I don't need to flirt to do business. Becos of my fun-loving, honest, nonchalant & generous character and maybe looks??? I've plenty of supportive friends. (They msg me after seeing my post on FB.)


Thank you for trusting and supporting me, all my dear friends.
Thank you for lovin' the imperfect me. 

P/S: I'm no longer with ALL my previous companies. This car business has nothing to do with them. I'm helping a friend to spread the awareness. He helped me to get my next car at a good price. (Will blog about it when the car comes! Hee) You may contact me @ 90087688 if you want to buy/change car/van/lorry/crane. (LOL) New or used all available! :) Will give you a good price when you quote "blog reader". Haha

To me, "awareness" is the most important. Please lah, there are soooooooo many car dealership companies in SG now. People can buy from anyone. But I want to make it like, when people need this service, they think of me immediately. And I'm doing good, becos everyone thought I'm in car sales now. LOL


God knows why he used wechat sia! Yes. I didn't see many of my friends for the longest time. Becos I closed all my doors for him. In return for lies and betrayals. Haha #FML

It's okay. Becos my life can only get better and will definitely be better. I mean, all along, I don't need a man ah. This is something everyone knows about me. 

There is only one me. So no matter how hard someone try copying my style, hair, makeup etc, she can never be me. 

And I realised... Putting on makeup is really a skill. Cos I seen the most horrible makeup yesterday. My goodness. 

She's probably trying to copy my simple makeup (as what my friend said), but it's fucking horrible. 

Sorry ah. I have skill, you no have ah. Do you know I did the makeup for myself for all my photo shoots? Yah. Quit trying. 

Monday, June 27, 2016

Deevana Patong Resort & Spa @ Phuket


This was where I stayed in Phuket. Randomly found in on Trivago. It's nice and affordable at $55 sgd per night. 


I must have left a deep impression for going alone. The captain said he spent one whole night searching for me on FB. LOLOL

And he made me promise to return there again... Next month. Hahaha Sorry, no more Phuket for the meantime. I want to travel to other places. 





It's like a chalet. 


Their service is really recommendable. This part is funny. He wanted to open the door, I stopped him. Cos I want to knock knock the door first. 

And he said... "But nobody inside, why you knock?" Hahahahaha Aunty at my best. 





The resort is 3-5 mins walk to Patong seafood area.



Coincidentally, I was back to this oh-so-familiar stall for dinner. 


They recommended this lobster and it's really quite good. 700 baht = about $28.


Must have Tom yum soup but it's so-so only. 


Most happening street in Patong. Please be careful when you're in there. A lot of men, women, weirdo stopping you everywhere. 

For me, I'm fucking good at ignoring people. So I just walk and walk and walk, don't care at all. 


It's sort of a memory recollection for this trip. Passed by so many places that we went before.


Upset, but still, thank you for the memories, with a sincere heart! :)

The taxi/tuk tuk back to the hotel is so expensive. I refused to pay, so I walked back. It's not difficult actually, unless you're a super 路痴. 


View from my room! And it's the start of a brand new day! 



The pool! They have two I think. Wasn't really paying attention when they tried to intro me. 



This definitely taste better. I asked them to add extra chilli padi. 

I love spicy food. My friends named me "chilli padi". And it's true my character is totally like one. 

But I'm not a revengeful person at all. It's tiring to be one. And usually when I'm done with something/someone, I'll simply give zero fuck. 


This meal is cheap! 300 baht for both dishes. About $12. 



Jungceylon; the large shopping mall. Again, it's memories. 


I was alone but I wasn't lonely. Cos I enjoyed my own company. 


Sudden thunderstorm so I sat for another glass of I don't know what. 

Walked back to hotel (about 15-20 mins) when the rain got milder. 


They really gave me a shock sia. Suddenly, halfway when I doing mask, they knocked and said "room service". I didn't order anything. 

It was very nice of them to even take note of my birthday. Thank you Deevana!

Thank you each and everyone for all the well wishes, be it on FB, email or whatsapp. Very much appreciated. 

Even though I choose to shut myself out from the world (typical Cancerian), I received a lot of love this year. 

The feeling is irony. The man you loved the most, broke you down on your birthday for two consecutive years. 





Woke up damn early, paid 250 baht for their breakfast and it's time for me to go home. 


It was a short and pleasant trip. I enjoyed myself! :) 

I hope the next time I go again, I'm not alone anymore.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

I'm not the only one.


I've loved you for many years, maybe I am just not enough. 
 
You've made me realise my deepest fear, by lying and tearing us up. 
 
You say... I'm crazy. Cos' you don't think I know what you've done. But when you call me baby, I know I'm not the only one. 

I know I'm not the only one.

Friday, June 24, 2016

A changed me!

In the past, travelling alone will never happen to me. I think it's crazy to do that. But now, I LOVE TRAVELLING ALONE. It gave me ample time to sort out all my confusions.

I think I've changed. Into someone even more independent and stronger than before. It's a good change, I hope.


I'll blog about Phuket soon. This resort is definitely worth the recommendation. 

Everyone here mistaken me as a Japanese. There are like 7 weird men from Hongkong, Japan, Angmoh came to "make friend" with me. I ignored and walk away. Sibei attitude. Lol

Okay, where's my next destination? I think I should buy annual travel insurance, lol. 

Thursday, June 23, 2016

生日快乐,我对自己说

GREETINGS! 

From 38,000 miles apart now. 

 

Birthday escapade. Oh my, I'm so anti social now. I choose to be alone, on this very day. 

Alone is good. Others have no chance to hurt you at all. And you can't possibly hurt yourself. 
 

This is funny. My friend is envious of me. But I envy them too. 
 

I've slimmed down so much lately that my tummy becomes FLAT. It's a good thing, I can eat more here! ^^

Orange is the new black! :) 

Happy birthday to me. A brand new chapter, a brand new life, a brand new me.

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

In holiday mood!

Today, I've finally plucked up the courage to extract ALL the photos/videos out from my phone. I teared looking at all of them. There are more than 30 albums and more than 600 photos. I stared at them, with tears in my eyes but keep holding back and reminding myself NOT TO CRY. I knew this will happen. But I have to do it, sooner or later.

It's over.

Cheryl once told me before... "Time will not let you forget someone. But time will let you meet another one to help you forget that someone."

Somehow, I think it's true. I hope I can meet that "another one" soon. And hope that "another one" knows what's love, honesty and loyalty all about. I will not share my man with another woman. If that's so, I'd rather give him to her, no matter how painful.

Love is selfish, and should be selfish. You cannot love and be nice to two persons (or more) at the same time. You cannot fucking prepare two sets of breakfast and give it to two women on the same day. #punintended (You know, I'm really glad I love taking photos and keeping every bits of memories.)

What's worst is that the other woman is a 大婶. She's 10 years older than me. She publicly announced their loving moments on company's FB somemore. Shameless much? (Proving to everyone what a fucker is he?)

This relationship only taught me one lesson - ALL MEN FUCKING CANNOT BE TRUSTED. 

Well, you can't expect loyalty from someone who can't even give you honesty. 

All the things I found out, destroyed all the good I see in him.

But whatever. It's none of my business anymore. I wish them a happily ever after.

I'M GOING HOLIDAY TOMORROW!!! MY 2ND SOLO TRIP!


From my daddy, lol. I should go overseas more often. Haha 

Don't worry. I'll enjoy myself, live very well and wait for the right man who deserved me! :) 

Monday, June 20, 2016

Time


It's true. Time heals everything. 

Initially, I wanted to title this post "How to survive a breakup with someone you love deeply?" 

But here I am trying very very hard to nurse my own broken heart, I don't think I've the right to advise anyone. 

So I can only let time heals and fades away everything. No idea how long more will it takes? Maybe one week? Maybe one month? Maybe one year? I don't know. But I'm doing good! :) 

I only feel like travelling (non stop) now. To see the world, before it's too late. And so, I'm gonna book an air ticket tomorrow, to somewhere alone, for a short trip, to spend my birthday in a quiet mode. 

The kids allowed me to go alone cos they don't want to take plane anymore, lolol. Thanks wor. 

It's not that I don't want to spend it with my family, but I just don't feel like staying in SG. Becos I'm so homely, that I'll prefer to rot at home everyday when I'm in SG. 

Sorry to make my family and friends worried about me. I'm honestly recovering well. 我已经放下了. No regret, anger nor hard feelings now. 


Just that I need abit more time to think about what am I gonna do next. I mean by, how can I earn moreeeee money. 

Hahaha! My friend said I'm back to myself, the very 潇洒 Joanne. Say do, means do. Say go, means go. Say no, means no. A woman of my word, very decisive. That's how I gained trust from everyone, isn't it? 

Good night. 

Saturday, June 18, 2016

素颜美美


ZERO makeup, bare face, in pyjamas, wah, why still so chio? HAHAHA

You know why? 


Cos I found a miracle candy in Taiwan. Eat liao no makeup also can be pretty one. Lol

Just kidding. I only ate one piece so far, in Taipei. Still have two unopened pack. 

But my skin condition did improve recently, cos I do mask EVERYDAY. Women, we must love ourselves!!! 岁月不饶人! :) 


Btw, I'm running this giveaway on my FB page now. Thank you for the overwhelming "likes". Join and share now! You might be the lucky winner! :) 

Sidetrack:-

Raeann asked me a very sensitive question... 

"Why aren't you in contact with Susantii's family?" 

I was like... Oh please, did they even treat me like a human? Even the kid there is saying all the bad things about me to my daughter. 

I didn't react cos I give zero fuck? Lol. No matter what they say, my daughter stand and stick by my side cos she knows it best. And I'm already kind enough to still allow my daughter to go there. Just imagine, a kid keep hearing all the bad things about her own mum, how will she feels? Please lah. Why get the poor kid involved? Luckily my family not like that. 

The only person I respect there is my ex FIL, becos he was really nice to me, even though most of the time I don't know what's he talking about. 

You respect me, I'll respect you, it's this simple. 

My attitude is bad, I admit. But this is me. Take it or leave it. I see no point being nice to people who treat me like shit. I rather save my energy to be nice to people who are nice to me. And you know, I can be REALLY nice. 

Thursday, June 16, 2016

I think I...

Got jet lag, Hahahahahaha! So tired!

Still thinking if I should post about the trip cos I've been giving some "live" updates on my IG and FB page (which I've to thank you for the "likes", it's hitting 1k soon. I'll do a major giveaway when it hits 2k). 
 

有没有美? Lol

I'm now waiting to see a doctor. My index finger is swelling like a fucking sausage now. It's mad painful otherwise I will not ever wish to visit a doctor. 


Most delightful and painful (cutting is small, should have buy one size bigger) buy from this trip. Lol very cheap only. (If you watched DOTS...)


I love this photo, lolol. The photographer (yours truly) is so pro. Hahaha


Fatty received praises everywhere she went. "So pretty!" "So cute!" But she never give a damn. 
 

Our 天灯. Had a hard time writing all those words, I've to use dictionary on my phone, lolol. Wish everyone here "十分幸福". 


Wrote by the kids, haha! 


Photos are not in order, I randomly chose. 



My sausage finger, lolol. 2 days MC hor. Very serious. Haha



I re-watched this show (for the 2748 times) on the flight back and weeped crazily. Hahaha