Tuesday, February 24, 2015


Officially started work today; 初六! Becos hor, I'm pantang you know? They said Rat cannot be in office on 初五 as it will brings bad luck. Hahaha

Well, it's true, I'm not trying to escape anything, cos I prefer working life more. When I'm working, I'll have no time for nonsense, and I feel accomplished. 

Raeann has decided to come back, on her own accord. I did NOTHING to persuade her back. In fact, I asked her to go back to her dad's first becos there are a few things I need to arrange; her school bus & tuition.

Someone said, "she's old enough to think and decide what she wants", but why I get blamed again? So, am I supposed to push her away, when she's crying so badly that she wants to come back? 

If I do so, I'll be termed as "fucked up mom" again. See? This is what I mean by "everything I do is wrong". People can just say whatever they like, becos pushing blames is the easiest way out. 

And the best part? He took advantage of my mom's soft spot to attack me. However, it has already reached a stage till I'm starting to ignore my mom's requests. I mean, if it's reasonable, I will listen. If it's not, why should I? 

No idea why my mom even want to entertain him? She can just ignore, and let me handle it myself. Things won't be so complicated then. 

She knew I'm not in the wrong, but becos she wanted to have peace, so I'm expected to give in, always. To the extend when he physically abused me in front of them, I'm asked to forgive & forget and not to blow up the matter. And I've been asked to ignore all his verbal abuses for many many months. Ignorance is not a bliss, in this case. Cos he will get his own way, thinking that my mom supported him. Condoning is just as bad as participating. 

I can't help but keep wondering what's on her mind? I don't understand, at all. I think the only way to get everything solved is me moving out with the kids. 

1) She can get her desired peace.
2) I can handle things my own way, the way it should be. 

Becos I'll never look back again. I hope people can stop asking me, "do you need to resort to divorce?" Of cos I've valid reasons to do so, else why am I able to settle everything so fast?! 

Even the blind can see that I'm happier with my life now, even with my messy hair. 

The best way to make a woman feel loved, is to let her know that she's being appreciated.  

Everyday is their birthday, lolol. Oh, actually, tomorrow is everybody's birthday! 

This is mad funny! Hahahaha

Sunday, February 22, 2015

羊年初三 ~ Legoland

So last minute and impromptu, booked a room only on 初二 at freaking RM1500++ per night. #killpeopleputfire

Breakfast before setting off... It's been some time since we had breakfast together, the three of us. It used to be a weekly routine, cos they love BK breakfast! :) 


Friday, February 20, 2015

羊年初一 & 二


The yearly affair which you will see at almost every household. 

I'm very red this year, cos this is the only dress I last minute bought online. Plus the red bag, as I've no time to change, 很红咯! But becos it's CNY, I don't look that outstanding. If I wear lidat on a normal day, people will think I'm gonna commit suicide or something.
This year didn't turn out as boring as I expect. Met Cheryl for dinner and a short drinks with Meimei. Raeann went out with my aunt and cousins. 
The thing about me is, I care about my kids' well being more than anything else. I didn't force them on anything (except on basic education), becos I want them to have a happy childhood. 


Someone is real happy! Cos she gets to buy everything she wants! Even when the shop is already closed, they specially open it for her to buy.

Received a HUGE angbao with all these inside. Very creative I must say! This person must be so worried that I'll tio summon!!! Hahahaha 


Hello everybirdie!!! Didn't have a happy morning due to some crap. I guess one of my greatest regret in life is, "being considerate to people who are not appreciative". Saying and explaining too much is useless. You're not worth my time, at all!

Cheryl planned a sumptuous bbq at her place. I ate so much till I'm exploding. This CNY, I think I put on at least 3kgs! Jialat!

The next thing I saw was, they were all drenched. I was like omfg, I didn't bring any extra clothes. Drove back home to take clothes and towels for them. Luckily we're staying nearby!!!

Oh baby, I think I'm getting popular! Many people are reading my blog!!! (Hello there, Happy CNY to U!) They are so well informed, till the extend when I didn't mention any names, they will know who am I talking about. 

Sorry, not sorry! I mean every word I typed on my blog, becos they are facts. And no matter how angry or upset I am, I'll never do any personal attack on anyone. 

The only thing I'm guilty about is, getting innocent people involved. (I'm so sorry about that!) Well, if there's anything anyone is not happy about, come and confront me straight in my face lah. What's up with all the 小动作? Listen liao also dulan. 

Nobody is indispensable, including me. If there comes a day I wish to leave, it won't be cos of you, I just don't wish to cause unnecessary troubles to anyone else. 

Black Box - February 2015

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Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Lunar Doraemon New Year's Eve

It's amazing how many tasks I can complete when the little rascal is not around. I made her go to her daddy becos I need to settle my room. It's literally impossible to pack anything with her around. Cos I pack left, she will mess right. I pack the right she messed, she will mess the left again. I'm not kidding.

Sometimes, I really can't help but to think that I'm really good at decluttering. Within 4 hours, I cleared 3 baskets of clothes, packed two wardrobes & the horrible mess (visible ones, those inside cupboard I don't care, lol), changed bedsheet and packed all the angbaos. (I'm going to wash my toilet later!) Omg, I'm good! Hahahahaha

Wah, my bedsheet is so cute, I'm lovin' it...

I think the kids' dad bought it, I can't really remember. But I found it inside the store room, so I just took and change lor! 

Every single time I changed a new bedsheet, I pray that Meimei don't pee or vomit on it. Please...

My room is finally neater, I feel better now. Tired die me! 

CNY sucks! It made people so busy for nothing. But it's also good lah, I threw away what's meant to be thrown. However, I also found some things that I don't wish to see or remember; memories. Le' sigh!

Not happy nor looking forward to this CNY at all becos,
1) I only bought one new dress. (Last time, I'd prepare at least 3 lor!)
2) I didn't buy any new shoes.
3) I think I'll be rotting at home.

The only thing I can be happy about is...

I've got a new bag!!! So chio right! Thank you very much na! ^.^

Just saw this, I think the oblivious-ness lies in our blood, lolol!

Reunion dinner with thy family, without my two girls. Guess I need to get used to being alone during CNY. They will be back later though.

It's okay, Anders boy can cheer 姑姑 up too! :)

Okay, the kids are back!!!

I miss this girl, so much. Feeling a little emotional cos she has grown so much. Her tooth has grown out. She has become much more mature. I'm sorry baby, for making you suffer for our mistake. You only deserved to be happy, that's why I respected your decision. I did not and will not abandon you, becos you mean so much to me. Please be good, no matter where you are and what you do, Mummy will always be there for you.

Sorry, I look very messy, becos I'm totally worn out from today's cleaning. A normal person won't put makeup at home lah. 

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Going crazy!

OH MY GOD! I need to rant this out, if not I can't sleep.

I pray and hope everyday, that my daughter will stop bringing nonsense to my room, it's already till a stage that I'm only left with a path to walk. 

3/4 of the things inside my room, are not mine. I have no space to put my things at all. 

And most of the things are NONSENSE. Stationeries, books, files and PLENTY of toys and soft toys, which are normal I know. But there are nonsense like blue tags, plenty of ugly bags (those free gifts), tons of waste papers, unused angbaos, balloons, and today... 

A TENT!!! She intend to build the tend at the only path I can walk, to sleep inside. GREAT! 

It's like no matter how I pack and throw, it will still be the same, cos she will bring more nonsense back. 

I used to love to keep things, for memories. But now, I LOVE THROWING THINGS AWAY. 

Actually, the spring cleaning in my house is very simple.

Nonsense which people can't bear to throw, they will give it to my garung guni kids -> they will bring back to the room -> I THROW! 

In fact, the whole house is filled with plenty of nonsense - toys that they only play once or twice and dump it aside. I've been asking people not to buy, becos my dad will be unhappy. THIS IS NOT MY HOUSE LEH. 

Ok lah, I won't ask for much, I just hope Meimei will stop messing up all the things and become neater. I ish the buay tahan already cos I feel like living in a trash bin everyday. (And the best part? She happily went to bed with all the mess everywhere. I salute her lah!)

I want a place of my own.