That's right. It's karma, I don't deny. And I didn't even react over it. I'm too tired to go against anyone now. However, attacking people when they're most vulnerable, doesn't make you a good person. :)
I'm very strong. But sometimes I get grouchy, vulnerable, weak etc too. Just becos I'm a human.
This place holds ALOT of memories for us. "我在看 MRT!" Hahahaha
Cos it's too tiring to hold on, one sided. I'll not stop what comes may, and not chase what's gone anymore.
Yes. There are plenty of regrets in me, but there's nothing I can do now. And I've been telling myself... "至少，我曾经拥有". I'm contented enough! He will forever be the best, in my eyes. Thank you for appearing in our lives. The connections and bond between us, are something no one else can replace. I'm glad we loved each other deeply before.
Waiting for the day when I look at our past MANY photos, I smile instead of crying.
Feels damn weak sia, becos my 2 girls are consoling me everyday.
"Mummy, don't cry!"
"Raeann, I think we better stop the song, mummy is crying again."
"Mummy, u know when u put makeup, u can't cry?"
"Mummy, do you want people to look at you? If no, then stop crying."
Raeann played her part too. She passed me tissue and pour warm water for me.
They never ask why I cry. They just asked me not to cry anymore. Giving me the assurance that "they are always here for me".
The two little imps who will never leave me. I'm thankful for them. This Meimei hor, every night she will repeat one sentence, "Mummy, can u face me to sleep? So I can kiss you?"
No, really, I'm not desperate for men. I can live without. But it's the "love" that existed made me so vulnerable. And it taught me a good lesson too.
"We fight to hold on, we fight to let go."
We can't gain if we can't let go. There's no love without tears, there's no happiness without sacrifice, and there's no forever without goodbyes...